Be My SecrE.T

我很喜欢她的歌。
One step too far
All at once I'm falling
Just like a star
I'm burning for you
Thought I could keep myself from feeling this way
I guess that was my first mistake

Cause suddenly I'm walking
Down a dark street to your door
Wanting you is driving me insane

And now my feet are standing
Where they've never stood before
Guided by a twist of fate

If I lose myself with you tonight
Fall apart or hold on tight
Wrong or right I won't be afraid
Cause even if my heart should break
You'd be the best mistake I ever made

I'm in your room
Now there's no denying
What's in your eyes
When I look at you
Two shadows talking but they don't make a sound
Words have lost their meaning now

And the air has turned electric
Now I know the time is right
To put myself into your hands

And suddenly I'm shaking
As your fingers touch my skin
I don't need to understand

But If I lose myself with you tonight
Fall apart or hold on tight
Wrong or right I won't be afraid
Cause even if my heart should break
You'd be the best mistake I ever made

And if tomorrow proves me wrong
I swear I don't belong
I know I'll carry on

So I will lose myself and bare my soul
Take this chance cause heaven knows
I'm so far gone， my choice is made
And even if my heart should break

When I lose myself with you tonight
Fall apart or hold on tight
Wrong or right I'll always say
You're the best mistake I ever made
You're the best mistake I ever made
You're the best mistake I ever made

“假如一间铁屋子，是绝无窗户而万难破毁的，里面有许多熟睡的人们，不久都要闷死了，然而是从昏睡入死灭，并不感到就死的悲哀。现在你大嚷起来，惊起了较为清醒的几个人，使这不幸的少数者来受无可挽救的临终的苦楚，你倒以为对得起他们么？”

“然而几个人既然起来，你不能说决没有毁坏这铁屋的希望。”——《呐喊》自序

Updated:最新的 svn 版本已经上传了丢失的代码。

今天看到 jilong 在评论里说:

从SVN下载你的tublog代码,运行时提示 myforms模块没有找到,而你的下载代码中并没有该模块呀??

仔细一看, 发现我在6月14日之后的版本(r21以后)新增的代码没有 Add 到 svn 里面, 也就是说我做了无用功(这部分代码是在学校的电脑上写的, 所以...) -______-

哭死了.

不过不过, r21及以前的版本是可以用的, 哈.

补课的25天“哗”一声就过去了，感觉很奇怪。也许是因为Dan走了没人陪我说话……

每天的生活都像是例行公事，早上6点昏昏沉沉地起床，买早餐，来到空无一人的教室；中午用最快的速度（我觉得我50米短跑考试时都没这么快）冲向饭堂，吃完饭再赶回教室；下午冲回宿舍洗澡，接着吃饭，然后又回教室……每天用铅笔在桌上写满英语单词，第二天把记住的擦去；每天为数学作业耗去至少一个小时，偶尔还会抓狂；每天在课上打瞌睡，貌似自己从未睡醒过。

如今已得到的回报，就是逐渐提高的政治分数，还有意料之外的Mr. Gao的表扬。还会有更多的，我相信。只要我付出足够多的努力。

在接下来的两百多天里，让我来演绎什么叫疯狂。

还有三天就要返校了，高三要开始了。昨天写完数学之后在白纸上乱画，画了一句大大的 "Are You Ready"，可惜很难看，于是重画了一句 "Ready, Aim, Fire"，还是很难看，扔掉了。

Am I ready? 真的说不准啊。

前两天回了龙岗，翻出了自己初三时写的随笔。感觉像是看自己小时候的照片——“我怎么会这么白痴呢”——那时我的文笔看起来比现在好很多啊，用词异常华丽，哈哈。一直都觉得初三时没有调节好自己的情绪，这或许是一大败笔吧。不知道高三这一年我能不能做好呢，面对着更大的压力更多的困难更频繁的考试。

自认为放假以来我都挺努力的，应该是我上学 11 年来最认真学习的一个暑假，初三的寒假都没有这么拼命……为的是什么呢，为了那个钉在教室后面的那个 "E.T's Fantastic Dream" ，为了那句“我们一起为 HK 努力”的约定，还是为了那些很渴望得到的荣誉，又或者只是不甘心自己在班上排名倒数第一呢？

Anyway, fight.

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王若琳 - Let's Start From Here

Giving up, why should I
I've come too far to forget
We're beautiful, we just got lost
Somewhere along the way
So much was missing when you went away
Let's start from here, lose the past
Change our minds, we don't need a finish line
Let's take this chance don’t think too deep
Of all those promises we couldn't seem to keep
I don't care where we go
Let's start from here
Standing here face to face
A finger on your lips
Don't say a word don't make a sound
Silence surrounds us now
Even when you were gone I felt you everywhere
Let' start from here, lose the past
Change our minds, we don't need a finish line
Let's take this chance don’t think too deep
Of all those promises we couldn't seem to keep
I don't care where we go
Let's start from here
Let's start from here
I've never been the one to open up
But you've always been the voice within
The only warmth from my cold heart
Let's start from here, lose the past
Change our minds, we don't need a finish line
Let's take this chance don’t think too deep
Of all those promises
Let's start from here, lose the past
Change our minds, we don't need a finish line
Let's take this chance don’t think too deep
Of all those promises we couldn't seem to keep
I don't care where we go
Let's start from here
Let's start from here
Let's start from here
Let's start from here